Unlabelling my life

Posted: 17:01 hours (GMT+8)

E-learning week and I’ve only managed to complete 1 quiz so far… Communication Skills for Work. I started with 32/50 and kept redoing it until I got 40/50. Too tired to find out what else is wrong.

I want to edit all my blog categories. I realise I can place many of my entries under “personal” and just be done with that. No need to break it down so much. If I cut down on my categories, I’ll probably have “random”, “serious”, “site updates”, “events”, “news”, “quizzes”, “request for help”, “other people”, “SPDJ club”. Hmm, that’s it I think. I don’t really have to label everything unless that topic comes up often enough.

But that’s just me thinking aloud to myself here.

When I have the time I’ll get around to it.

But that’s what I always say. This time I’ll make sure it happens.

Straying from the marked path

Posted: 23:58 hours (GMT+8)

I was about to fill in an application for a degree in Facilities Management, which was the final year option I gave up in order to study the Quantity Surveying option. Then I realised that the field of construction and property just isn’t my thing, it’s not what I want to continue doing.

I think I’ve known it for months, maybe since nearly the beginning of this academic year. I guess the practical side of me just brushed away the thoughts. After all, it’s very easy to just go with what’s convenient.

Maybe I was inspired to make a decision after observing Francine. I know that she’s intending to pursue Stage Management or something related to Theatre, which is her passion, even though it has nothing to do with her current studies (Business Finance).

I can’t really say if my choice is where my passion lies since I’m more into music and photography. They don’t pay the bills though, so they have to wait before I invest more time into them.

I guess it’s both surprising and maybe even a little disappointing to many people that I’m planning to pursue further studies in something unrelated to my diploma. My family, relatives, friends and the company I interned at probably expected me to stay in this field.

My parents were oddly supportive when I mentioned that I wanted to switch fields. My father simply told me that it was my life (he tried to make it into a Bon Jovi joke, which I ignored). My mother suggested taking Mass Communications since it was more general (I said no). Maybe since TEBS went overseas, they’ve realised that their kids aren’t kids anymore, that they will grow up and have lives which will be unlike what they imagined we would have. That now we’re old enough to make decisions about our future. That it’s time for them to let go and let us make the mistakes we’re meant to in order to learn about life.

I wonder everyone will react when they find out I want to study Journalism.

Edit: 00:42 hours (GMT+8)

My sister told me to consider taking Arts since it has a wider range of modules. Which would mean that I would be able to learn Journalism and other interesting stuff of my choice in addition to that. Sounds cool but I have to think about it for a bit.

Taking a step back from the heat

Posted: 23:08 hours (GMT+8)

I don’t even know why I tried to apologise today.

I don’t even know what I’m saying sorry for. Maybe I do.

I have an inkling of what’s damaged but I have to remind myself it’s not my job to try and fix it now.

If I leave it be eventually things will fix themselves.

Nothing much I can do about it. Something like this is out of my control.

Changed

Posted: 23:50 hours (GMT+8)

The person that I was at the beginning of this year… It’s still me, but I’ve learned and gotten stronger. I’m not going to be dramatic and say that I’ve changed completely for in essence I am still the same person.

I reached this realization a few months ago and had mentioned it to the only person who had noticed my previous state earlier this year. Now I know for sure that it’s true.

More about this some other time.

Mmm…

Posted: 21:56 hours (GMT+8)

Jack Daniel’s chocolate.

Teeheeheeheehee!

My neighbour is awesome.

2 pieces of that unexpectedly made my day.

Being my own doctor

Posted: 00:12 hours (GMT+8)

Time has got to be the worst medicine in the world to swallow. It works though.

I prescribed myself a good deal of it. I hope I have the discipline to complete the treatment. Either that or hope my situation improves suddenly.

Like they say, a patient can only be cured if he’s willing to be.

Facebook - Keeping people off the streets

Posted: 00:30 hours (GMT+8)

Just so we’re clear, I joined Facebook a few months ago, way before it was the huge trend it is now in Singapore. At that point in time, I only had 2 friends, no photos and only 1 of the fun applications. Now it’s expanded into 30 “friends”, 2 photo albums and about a dozen applications.

I have to say “friends” because I don’t even remember some of those who sent me friend requests.

Facebook is quite similar to Friendster, except the applications can leave your page quite crowded. It’s also a huge potential time-sucker as you can end up spending well over an hour on the site checking out your friends’ quiz results, new applications, photos or just sorting though the requests.

I wasted some time today trying out the personality quiz. Apparently my personality is nothing close to what someone of my star sign (Pisces) is expected to be like. Does that mean I can throw away my astrology books now?

Although I feel that Facebook is largely a waste of time, at the very least, I think I can make use of the site to learn more about my friends and maybe about myself. I’m completely avoiding joining in on the games. I don’t need another reason to stay in front of the computer when I need a bit more sunlight and social activity.

Now with added randomness

Posted: 22:10 hours (GMT+8)

I recently received some advice from a friend who told me I ought to stop thinking so much about things since it just makes me assume too much. So I decided to be a little more random.

It felt like I was working on pure instinct, with little logic attached. That meant that I stopped overthinking about stuff I wanted to do and just, well, did them when I felt like it, with barely a second thought.

Which left me thinking “Wait, was that such a good idea…” several times when it was already too late to change my mind. Which also leaves me wondering how many people are misinterpretating my words or actions right now.

I think I’ve successfully weirded a few people out in the past few days.

Well, damn. There’s just no way to win.

2nd week of school

Posted: 22:41 hours (GMT+8)

More work.
Less procastination.
More proper sleep.
Less idling.
More perseverance.
Less words, more action.

2 weeks to the retest.
6 weeks to the mid-semester tests.
14 weeks to the final exams.

14 weeks and a day from now, I don’t want to be wondering “what if?”.

I wish for a single thing… Success in whatever I do over the next 4 months.